Karen Blixen (under her pen name Isak Dinesen), wrote, "The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears or the sea."
Therefore, I will run to the beach, crying, and hopefully by the time I get there I will have figured out how I should feel, what I should do and how I can continue.
I imagined my life was going to be perfect and I forgot to think about the things that could go wrong, the things that could end. Everything ends.
But that is not what I want to think about. I want to think about what happens after the end. I want to think about the beginning. So I run to the ocean and I cry. I purge myself of the hurt feelings, the sadness, the guilt, the pain and the heartbreak. I have to let those things go. The salt water will help me let those things go.
When I can't cry anymore and I am exhausted from running, I stop and look out at the ocean. It is always the same and at the same time, it is always different. Just like life. We are the constant in our lives, everything else comes and goes. We are the ocean and everything else is the sun, the moon, the wind and the clouds. All those things change us, but we are always there, always the same and always different.
When I look at the ocean I can also see forever. I can start to see the future where my life is different, but where I can survive. And it will feel like all I am doing is surviving at first. Just getting by, day by day, but then one day, five minutes will go by and I won't have thought of it.
It's not that I will ever forget. I won't do that, I can't. But there will be days when it won't hurt as much, when I won't think about it for a while. That’s when I will start to live again. I can live again.
For everything I have lost, I have found something else. Strength. Community. Love.
The cure for anything is salt water. Cry. Run. Immerse yourself in the healing waters of the ocean. It will wash you clean, it will heal the hurt and it will make you whole again.
This post is fiction and was inspired by another prompt from The Red Dress Club. This week's fiction assignment was to write about water. It gives life and it takes it away. There are more posts linked there, please check them out and be sure to leave comments.
PHOTO DETAILS: These photos of the ocean were taken during a week in Cape Cod in 2009. #1. Cloudy at 9 AM: 1/1600 sec at f/4.5, ISO 200, #2. Sunrise at 6 AM: 1/160 sec at f/4.5, ISO 200, #3. Sunny at 9 AM: 1/800 sec at f/8, ISO 200